Acceptance is an immense word.
acceptance of self,
acceptance of imperfections.
I struggle to accept life, as it is.
I find myself wondering what is,
or what could have been.
and I find myself unhappy, as
I am continuously dissatisfied with life's circumstances,
and disappointed by loved ones.
How unfair to expect so much from anyone.

So now, I begin a new learning curve...
to truly work at accepting
what God has given me,
who He has gifted my life with,
I have life,
there is always a new start in the morning.

Forgiveness and letting go of anger

is deliverance into peacefulness.

It does not happen in an instance, 

but rather, takes it's time. 

It is a slow road to acceptance 

of not blaming oneself.
Acceptance....
my word for this week.
It is time to let my soul rest
and just BE

Some Days My Emotions Define Me

Sometimes the sadness is so engulfing it takes over who I am

I don't want it to,

but,

sometimes I can't stop it.

Other times the sadness just turns into anguish

about pasts we can not change

and hurts that can not be undone.

Anger rises in me at 

things I did not have any control over.

It's time to let forgiveness take over,

to find peace in my heart.

For then I will start to know happiness.

I would rather be defined by joy 

than sorrow.

So for now,

my dear God,

please help me to forgive and 

move on.

It's difficult to define who I am

or who I have become

and I have forgotten who I used to be.

I have hidden myself away, so deep,

for so long.

Even I can't find myself amongst the

"sure everything's fine"

and the 

"I'm okay's".

I never realized I was buried

so

deep.

But. Now...

it is time to dig myself out,

to emerge

out of this cocoon of loneliness and emotional

paralysis.

I need help with this God!

Give me your hand and pull me up,

walk beside me 

and whisper in my ear

that I am yours and 

beautifully made. 

Tell me

I am worthy.

Be my saviour once again.