It's difficult to define who I am

or who I have become

and I have forgotten who I used to be.

I have hidden myself away, so deep,

for so long.

Even I can't find myself amongst the

"sure everything's fine"

and the 

"I'm okay's".

I never realized I was buried

so

deep.

But. Now...

it is time to dig myself out,

to emerge

out of this cocoon of loneliness and emotional

paralysis.

I need help with this God!

Give me your hand and pull me up,

walk beside me 

and whisper in my ear

that I am yours and 

beautifully made. 

Tell me

I am worthy.

Be my saviour once again.